Saturday, June 1, 2013

A meaningful day... Remembering Jake.

 So, there have been many, many days since Jake died that I have tried to imagine what it'd be like to lose a child.  He was as close to my own as it could come, but the fact is... he wasn't mine.  He was Staci's.  And so, over the years, I have seriously thought about what it'd be like to have a child 4 years old pass away.
 And so it is.  Gabbi is 4 years old.  Actually, she is 2 months and 26 days away from being five.  Know why that is significant!?
 Jake died on October 5, 2006.  He would've been 5 on December 31, 2006.  That means he was two months and 26 days away from turning five.

So, on no other day will Gabbi ever be the EXACT age he was the day he went to Heaven. Only today
 I have thought about this alot, and wanted to remind myself on this particular day to stop and reflect and be extremely grateful for this little life I have been entrusted with and just RELISH this precious gift.
Today, as I am sitting on the beach, resting between chapters of a book, and it suddenly came to me to think about Gabbi's exact age.  This in itself is a miracle.  I have a POOR memory, and so I am confident God sent me this message.  He knew it was important to me. And so, today, as I cherish this time with my babies, I reflect on Jake's precious life.  That day, in October of 2006 when he went to be with Jesus.  That day when he was EXACTLY the same age as my Gabbi Girl is today.

I have been receiving many "messages" and "signs" to remember my sweet angel while being at the beach.  Strangely, I always feel closer to him here.  I have his photos all over the condo.  We use his Shrek towel every day when we are here.  And, we still have a few of his swim diapers in our owner's closet.  He is part of this place.  And he is forever a part of me.

It's a sweet and happy memory.  I loved that boy so deeply.  Thank you, Jake, for the memories.  And thank you, LORD, for my precious girls and this sweet time I get to spend with them every summer.

MO

10 comments:

Hallie said...

Sweet memories......

kimybeee said...

thanks for sharing - I feel like I "knew" jake too! he seemed so much younger than gg does. jake always had a smile and was loved from all over the world! just as your girls are because you share them too!

would still love to see and update of the reborn clan sometime. staci isn't as forthcoming as you are lol

Zhohn said...

Everytime y'all head to the beach I think of Jake! I remember the posts and pics from many years ago. Bald head, yellow little floaty and his buddy all "sealed". One thing for sure, y'all made sure that boy was happy every single day!

Thinking of one special blue eyes angel and the three girls that y'all were blessed with. I will forever be thankful to you and the family for sharing Jake with us and now the girls.

Crystal said...

I actually posted a screenshot of 11:11 today on fb.
I feel like I knew Jake and your family. I remember praying, getting my family to pray, and even my boys (Jake's age) to pray. I remember October 5, 2006 and the moment I read about Jake's passing. Jake and your family will always hold a special place in our hearts and life. ~Believe~

Beth E. said...

So beautifully written, Mo...

Amy K said...

Such a special boy, and a beautifully written post! Thank you for sharing your heart and your family.

Bj said...

Thanks for sharing your heartfelt memories of such a precious little soul. A little soul with such an outstanding impact on his little world. I know you treasure all the memories of that sweet boy! Jake, take a stroll down Heaven's streets for me, will ya? Love & hugs.....BJ

Mama J said...

Words straight from a Momma's heart. God nudges us often to remind us of how extremely blessed we are. You got a nudge..: )

Stephanie Jenkins said...

What a wonderful reminder to cherish every moment......

Lisa said...

Beautiful thoughts and words.